Here we go again!! Holidays came and went, and now its 2023! Time to set our intentions, words of the year, and start working on those lengthy resolutions. I have been taking some time to reflect on this blog... what is my intention, what do I want it to look like, and what could I possibly share with people that they DON'T already know themselves?!?! Who AM I to even share anything? I already realized that I am not special, there are millions of people with substance abuse and mental health issues... Why did I start this specific journey? Once more, fear and self-doubt were doing their tap-dancing routine in my head! I was forced to go inward to find my motivation, inspiration, and creativity.
Motivation - I started this blog because I felt a "calling" to do so... and then I had a trip to the psych ward (AKA my trip to Bali). So imagine being on the other side of it now and you can really start to question if this was a decision that was made in the best head space. I really had to dig down and decide IF it is something that I am proud of (I am) and want to continue (I do)!
Inspiration - When the blog started, the ideas were like lightening bolts to my head, Bam, Bam, Bam... the inspiration was awesome! And I just felt those juices flowing... but now... its been more jumbled thoughts about the things I want to explore more. I am taking Thai Chi classes, I am tip-toeing into crystals, I am joining spirituality circles, and signing up for classes to explore different topics. I am excited to have a hobby and am interested in just seeing what is out there! That doesn't mean that I am going to LOVE everything but its opening up my eyes to different experiences. And I hope to share these experiences with you.
Creativity - I was watching a documentary on Netflix - The Mind Explained and their issue on Creativity. The great music producer Brian Eno, said that creativity is "gardening, not architecture" and I just loved that line. You are planting something and you have to see where it goes as opposed to building something and you have to know every detail. Brilliant right? I had an idea and I built this website, but then I started to think about my audience and how often I should post and what topics do I want to explore and share. I was putting pressure on myself. I wasn't letting my ideas and my blog grow organically. This isn't my job, and I can't imagine any of you are musing to yourselves about why I haven't posted in a while... so I was only adding additional stress to the already stressed out woman I already am. Why do that to myself???
So what does all this rambling mean? It means that I am not done with this endeavor. It is something that excites me, something that I want to spend my energy on, and something that I want to share. Because when people share their stories, we feel less alone... less "other" in a world where "other" isn't always a good thing. And if I can help just one person feel less "other" with this blog, then it's all worth it in the end, isn't it? This blog is going to be about whatever I want, whenever I want because its mine. Thank you for letting me share in a safe space.
XOXO,
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